Elective Surgery
Today I will go under a general anesthetic. My orthopedic surgeon will use a scope to explore what is causing the pain in my knee. All my prior surgeries have been as a result of a traumatic event or extreme pain where there was no doubt about the need; no time to question surgery. It just happened before I had time to think or argue myself out of it. This time, I've been surprised at my state of mind and the questioning self talk that has lasted throughout the week. It's not really THAT bad. What if there's nothing to really clean up and fix? I can live with the pain. It just comes and goes. Maybe the fact that it's not inflamed right now is causing me to question the need. But I have to trust the opinion of the professional and be willing to go through the pain to experience the gain. This morning I also connected to the realization that marriage relationships sometimes need some help as well. It's too easy to rationalize that it's not really THAT ba